My Mind’s Overtime

I would always say that bedtime at night is one of my most dreaded times of the day and why? Because I know that as soon as I get in bed and I’m on my own, my mind starts working overtime, thinking about anything and everything.

One topic always on my mind is my grandad but especially as the 3rd anniversary of his death gets closer and closer.

My mind works overtime at the best of times but with my grandads anniversary coming up, my grandad is weighing on my mind more than usual, not that I’m grumbling as I always think of my grandad anyway and I like thinking about him as it reminds me of all the good times I had with him.

All I hope is that the day of his anniversary goes quick so that its over for another year, whereas I’ll think about him always.

Of course there’s other things that are on my mind too, money being one of them though I don’t think there’s a single person or family that doesn’t think about money or lack of it and our Chancellor and Government as a whole aren’t helping matters by making cuts wherever they please, normally where it doesn’t help the people of the United Kingdom.

Money goes down, prices go up there’s definitely a cost of living crisis, not that the government seems to care.

Now I’ve lost count of the amount of things on the list of what my mind goes through every night, though one of them is ending up seriously ill and fighting for my life again, I guess I could be classed as being paranoid and maybe I am, but who wouldn’t be? See my previous post to find out more.

Being nervous everytime I’m near someone I don’t know doesn’t help either, hopefully I’ll get back to normal as quick as possible.

I’m hoping I’ll never get as ill as I did but all things are possibilities, including getting as ill as I was in December, I’ve just got to keep my fingers crossed and touch wood etc.

All I can do is thank my mum, grandma and the doctors and nurses for no doubt saving my life and hope that I never need the doctors and nurses again and I’ll never need life saving care again.

I’m lucky that we have the NHS and that they were able to save my life when it was so uncertain, still I’m here and that’s what matters.