Outlook On Life, Not Great

My outlook on life can be pretty much summed up in one word by me, and pretty blunt:

Fucked, and why?

I’ve always wanted the same kind of life as other people, that special person, kids and a happy life, the problem with what I want… My health.

Most women I get remotely close too are all nice and seem kind of ready to try with me, but that’s when the problems and cracks start to appear. You see, when I start explaining my health problems and that I have no natural teeth and that I have a muscle disorder, that is when things start to unravel on me, I’ve been told many times that this is the woman’s loss and that they are shallow, but without being obvious, every single woman who does this to me, mentally cut me when they disappear because I know its because of me and my health problems that they’ve disappeared.

I’ve never asked for these health issues ever, I don’t want them and I wish I didn’t have them but frankly, some people don’t understand this and it really hurts that some people seem to think that I’ve wanted this.

This is why I try to not get close to any woman, because it’s always when I get more comfy and closer that they disappear on me.

Its not often that I speak to women either because to most of them, I’m an ugly, fat, dole dosser that is to lazy to work and pay taxes, they don’t think to ask why.

The truth is, I’d love to be working, with no health issues and do everything that most people can do and have that sort of lifestyle but I’m not that blessed.